Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Today Will Be A Good Day

Some days I wake up wondering why to even get out of bed.  I know that sounds depressing (and a bit emo) but I don't have work, school or anyone depending on me right now.  I hope to be in Milwaukee this fall so that I can return part time to the land of cubicles.


Each morning I tell myself it would be a good day.  Sometimes I am right, sometimes I am wrong.  I do wish the weather would improve (I know you agree!).  When the sun is hidden in the clouds, it's really easy to couch surf the day away.  I need someone to kick me off the couch - any walking buddies in the area?  


I didn't pass the lab test to continue chemo this week.  The protocol that I am on has a check halfway through the session.  I almost had the required levels to continue.  A pause in treatment was anticipated; a majority of the patients fail the levels as well.  So this week I have nothing.  Next Tuesday we will retry.  I hope I pass.  I want to keep trucking through this.  I have four more weeks of this session of chemo.  Then onto the next...


When you believe in a thing, believe in it all the way, implicitly and unquestionable.  Walt Disney


I believe.

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