Seven years.
Seven years.
Seven years.
Seven years that I almost never had.
Wow.
Seven years ago today my arch nemesis entered my life. In previous writings I said that my world was flipped upside down for while, but I realized my world didn't necessarily flip back. Instead, I came to live in the upside down world. It became my new normal. I thought that I would simply be a visitor in this town, but I have come to be an active participant. I'm an advocate for my fellow fighters.
My mind brought me back to this blog when the date sunk in. I read through a handful of posts. Some made me smirk while others made me sigh and say 'Oh Katrina...' The blog is also so full of gaps. The path to today is a collection of memories of pride and support, but also of times that I want to shake the past me that I see in my memory thought bubble. That's life. That's also what I have to offer the world. My story.
Today is a great reminder of the unseen complexities internally bouncing around someone. I am teary-eyed yet smiling as I write this. My mind is a whirlwind of gratefulness, anger, love, confusion, pride, and unknowns that I'm still sifting though... Seven years and this date still has a powerful effect on me.
I fought to stay here because I had people that I wasn't ready to leave. You all know who you are - expect big hugs from me. I'm so, so very grateful that I am here to do just that.
You all should give some big hugs to your people too.
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